User blog:Caring16/Ten years and it still hurts.

Hello everyone, If your wondering why that name well some of you might've been told this but on August 15 2003, My brother Chuck killed himself. It's been ten years and man does it still hurt. It may sound stupid or selfish or even wrong to want this but right now i really don't care if i sould selfish. But i so badly wish i could go back to this day ten years ago just 30 minutes before he done it and found some way to change his mind. Maybe if i did that the timeline could it messed up i could care less. As long as I can see him once again I'd be the happest girl there is. To tell you the truth i wouldn't care if Chuck was in prison for some crime. He'd still be alive I'd still be able to write to him talk to him on the phone whatever. Anyways i know there is no way i can go back in time to talk to him nor can i wish he faked his death due to being a top secret agent that was about to be found out. With that note i think this song is the best song for this date. Sorry that i wasted anyones time and thank you all for being there when i was at the lowest points in my life. \

See me smiling a song i try so hard to show for but sometimes i can't help but let some tears fall.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gMpkeDmqfY0